My supposedly role model

I'm trying to do something different. So I'm sorry if it seems funny. Inspired by poets found on a website I came across. Here it goes;


I thought I saw you in my dream
You said you love me
I never thought you could be so vulnerable
But that was all a dream

I pray and live on ecstasy
Taking any chance to escape reality
Sitting at a corner with a blade
I wanted it to end but to no avail

Lying in the hospital bed
Why did I survive?
Back home so I went
Instantly I saw red

Money went down the drain
Facts all too much to accept
Tormenting was all you knew
An innocent victim so I was

How could so much pain brought you joy?
How could so much sufferings gave you peace?
Was violence and lust all you knew?
Perhaps you should go back to school

I thought I saw you in my dream
Hitting me with a knife
At the end of it I saw a light
Never did I woke up from then